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“Kiana Valenciano shares ‘darkest, most hidden’ thoughts”

Kiana Valenciano laid herself bare before her fans and followers as she opened up about her inner fears for the first time at length this Sunday.

In a lengthy caption she penned on Instagram, the only daughter of Mr. Pure Gary Valenciano began by stating how “intimidating and outright terrifying” it is to expose her true self to a world – that is, social media – where everyone has an opinion on anything. 

 

 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 

 
 

 
 
 

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A post shared by kiana ? (@kianavee) on May 2, 2019 at 2:31am PDT

 

“In this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time… We compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. No wonder we’re all anxious,” she said.

Kiana also got real about her self-doubts as a musician after having hit with the realization that majority of the music she has put out is “skin deep”.

“I know that because I know the songs I write in silence that I refuse to share thanks to fear. It’s frightening to think about all the people I’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who I am. And it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, ‘go viral’, build a following. I worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s ‘cool’, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not,” she said.

Unlike what she seems online, the truth about Kiana is that she’s “super awkward” and deals with social anxiety from time to time. 

“I usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and I noticed that the more I try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! My closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do I care so much about what everyone else thinks?,” she continued.

The 26-year-old star concluded by leaving a reminder to everyone that it's okay to not have it all figured out. 

 

 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 

 
 

 
 
 

in this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time. it’s intimidating and it’s outright terrifying. we compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. no wonder we’re all anxious. lately i’ve reached the realisation that majority of the music i’ve been releasing is skin deep. i know that because i know the songs i write in silence that i refuse to share thanks to fear. it’s frightening to think about all the people i’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who i am. and it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, “go viral”, build a following. i worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s “cool”, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not. i’m super awkward and usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and i noticed that the more i try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! my closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do i care so much about what everyone else thinks? if you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, i hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. (Calvin Klein ad pala #char.) remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. i’m constantly trying to remind myself too. we got thissssssssssss. that’s it. that’s the post. END OF RANT HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY DON’T SIN SO MUCH ✌??

A post shared by kiana ? (@kianavee) on Jul 13, 2019 at 4:30pm PDT

 

“If you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, I hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. Remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. I’m constantly trying to remind myself too. We got this,” she said.